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I've been friend with a boy named *****I told him who the people that I love..One day, suddenly I was fighting with people that I love for no reason..until he graduated in primary school that I still live now..The next year, when he was just entering high school I kept waiting for him..I still love him..until I was tired of waiting for him again ..he had never come here again..I was bored, lazy and tired to wait for him..I tried to forget him ..Therefore I try to love another boy..and the boyand make  is a friend of mine that I always express my feelings to him..when I managed to love *****..I was able to forget him..but .. this year ..he comes back .. and my heart goes to him.. to fall in love with him for the second time..I feel very happy and a bit embarrassed because i can see him again..but I still cannot forget ***** ..because he always helped me..and made me happy..i felt very happy to be with him..but now he hates me because he knew that I had fallen in love with him..I hate this situation..I do not know what should I do..but I really2 cannot forget him..

although maybe I just love him for a while..but I have made a big mistake because he had become a victim of my romance..and I've made him as my lover for a while..

because all of that I had been a Playgirl..

Who in your opinion that I should choose him or *****maybe him ..?or maybe *****..??
but i LOVE both of them ~
i cannot choose..
OMO !! 
Watashi o tasukete kudasai !!
nan dangsin-i jigeum doum-i pil-yo haeyo !!
dear my GOD , help mee !!!!